What is it I really want?

Meditative Insights

In meditation it is good to  just be an impartial observer of the thoughts which  occur, now and then. Sometimes one could get dragged into the thoughts, so the status  changes from impartial observer to one involved in the thoughts. Then one comes back to being an impartial silent observer again. And soon one will be able to recognise that observer is also a role played by the ahankara. One may then contemplate on the fact that both the observer and observed are sustained in one self-evident, indivisible consciousness who is the truth of both the observer and the observed. Keep seeing this fact again and again. 

One may also contemplate that consciousness the truth of the observer-I cannot even be said to be all-pervading because consciousness is free of space. All pervading the word can be used only when there is a concept of space. So then what becomes appropriate for recognising space-less consciousness is the understanding of non dual, ekam eva advitiyam. The Consciousness that one is, is ekam eva advitiyam.

Om Tat Sat

Historical-I is false

Placing one's identity in a historical-I, which is nothing but a bunch of experiences that are finished, over, past, is truly false. Because history is just history. It is in the past. There is something about oneself which is always there and one's identity needs to be based on tha,t which is always there, that is free of the time-space framework and not on experiences which come to go.

So the historical-I, which one is identified with, which is based on a set experiences that come to go,  is false. 

That which is always there is the self-evident ever-present, independent, consciousness, in whose unwavering, undivided, indivisible, ever-presence, all experiences are illumined, empowered and observed to come and go. These experiences which come to go, have no power to prove their existence without the presence of self-evident changeless consciousness.

Observing experiences/knowing them and identifying with them as I are entirely different. To identify with the changing experiences as I, is indeed death ...because all experiences are temporary. Experiences of body, mind, world are there....to identify with them as I or mine, is indeed death....because none of them last. The physical body perishes. The jnani's mind too perishes on death of the body. The world experience is constantly perishing.

And indeed how loyal we are to this false sense of I!!! 

May Ishwara's Grace bless us all with Crystal clear self-knowledge.

Om Tat Sat