DR. AJAY KOTWAL - MY REALIZATIONS

A Human

- Person with a

Body, mind, soul-

Is the most precious

And the finest creation

Of the

 The Being

For it is only as a human being

In a human birth

-And in no other birth-

You can realize

You are

The Being

It is only as a human

As a person

With

Body- mind- soul

You can realize

That

You are not a human

You are not a person

You are not

A body mind and soul

You are

The Being.

Human birth is the only solution

To all the pains and problems of life.

You are a human

Only you

Can surely realize your real Self

As

 The Being

   By realizing the Being

That you always are

Is the only sure means

Of putting a permanent stop to all bondages

That arises

Because of spiritual ignorance

 And

Spiritual Knowledge.

You are the Being

You are

Not a human.

And

The Being

 Is

 Omniscient, Omnipotent and Omnipresent.

You are

The Consciousness.

Nothing exists outside

The range of your Consciousness

That you always are.

Your Self is

 The awareness

 That has absolute freedom

 Of all

Knowledge and activity

 And

You are that Self.

Your real nature is of

     The Being

       Ignorance of your real nature

Is the only cause of all bondage and suffering.

It is ignorance of your real nature

That misleads you into knowing yourself

As you are not.

All knowledge other than Self-knowledge

 Is the only cause

 Of bondage and suffering.

Self-knowledge is the direct knowledge

 Of your own nature

As you actually are

Not as you think you are

Or

As others think you are

  

       You are the Being

 The Self.

Self is the awareness

 That has absolute freedom

 Of all knowledge and activity

 And

You are that Self.

Whenever you know your self

As you are

You will know yourself as

The Deathless Blissful Consciousness Being.

        While one is engaged in one thought,

 And another arises,

Not only

The junction-point between the two thoughts

 Is the revelation

Of the true nature of the Self,

But the two thoughts are also emerging

In your consciousness

 This may be experienced

 By every one for one Self.

                                               The realization of Divine Consciousness

As one’s own Self

 Can occur anytime to anyone

Even to a novice

 And not only

 To advanced aspirants.

 It may start as a sudden flash

 Of being consciousness

And may lead to the final realization

By an orientation of the will

Towards the inner creative consciousness

That is always present within one Self.

  After eighty four lakh janmas,

Innumerable karmas,

You get the human birth,

Body mind, soul,

To achieve the ultimate goal

To realize,

That you are the Being,

Its only when you realize

You get the surprise

That you are the unborn, ajanma,

Unbound, unaffected by any karma

When Consciousness

Of your Self as The Being –

Is completely and permanently

 Recognized and realized,

 All appears and disappears

In

Your Consciousness

 Even in the usual normal course of life.

   By realization of your union

With the Being

Through intensive and fixed awareness,

There is

The disappearance and the appearance

 Of the universes,

As something separate from consciousness. Nevertheless! In your consciousness.

     The occurrence

Of

What appears as different states of consciousness,

Is nothing else

Except your Consciousness

Appearing as different states of Consciousness.

Like the waters of the lake may appear

As a bubble, ripple or a wave,

But it is nothing else

Except the water of the lake.

                The three different states of consciousness,

 Waking, dreaming and profound sleep,

 Emerge, submerge and merge

In you

The Being,

Like a bubble, ripple and a wave

Emerge, submerge and merge

In the waters of the lake.

Your consciousness always remains

As the background of all

We see or don’t see,

We feel or don’t feel

Think or don’t think,

Do or don’t do,

Experience or don’t experience,

Whether we are aware of it or not.

Lack of awareness

 Is ignorance of the fact

 That you are always aware,

You can never be unaware.

 Whatever may happen,

In the triad of

Waking, dreaming and deep sleep,

You

The Being

  Is

Always blissful

Always unaffected.

  

                                                    All the preachers and the sages,

All the stations and all the stages,

All the Knowledges and all the experiences,

All the Theories and all the practices,

 Of all the yogas and all the meditations,

All creations and manifestations

Are like personality makeup’s,

-Costumes and cosmetics-

Constituting and sustaining

A fascinating and wondrous

Illusion,

That veils your

Ultimate reality

From your own Self

As The Being-

From being realized

You are the Being,

You are the only power

That abides

 In all,

You remain concealed in your power,

In different names and forms,

While creating and fulfilling

 The desires

 In all people.

You The Being,

Your Highest power

Is only your will power,

That is in you,

As wetness is in water,

As heat is in the fire,

As ignorance is in desire.

When you realize

 Your true Self

As

The Being

Then

The Manifest and the unmanifest

And even the fullness and the voids

 Appear as forms of your Consciousness.

Although Things appear and disappear,

Yet in reality

 Nothing appears and nothing disappears;

Although things appear to arise and subside

Yet in reality

Nothing arises and nothing subsides,

                                      Although things appear to emerge and submerge

Yet in reality

Nothing emerges and nothing submerges

In reality

Only You The Being

The Consciousness

 Appear in different aspects

As if appearing

As if disappearing

As if arising

As if subsiding.

As if emerging

 And

As if submerging.

As you have

All the characteristics

The Being,

You are not a Human,

A human is a person with a

Body mind and soul

 You are The Being

                                                                Knowledge of Self

As the Being

 Is the gift that

 Disseminates all-round

When you take human birth

And this gift can be claimed

Only by Self knowledge

 And

 Realization of your self as the Being.

The universe is the unfoldment

Of your power

Which

Is always reminding you

That you are the Being.

                                                                          In spite of

 The creation, sustenance and destruction

 Of the worlds,

Occurring one after another,

There cannot be a break

In your awareness

Because you are

The Being,

 The creator, the maintainer and the destroyer.

                                   Only when you realize

Your Self

Not As

 A person

- Human, body, mind, soul-

But as the Being-

Only then

The Limiting knowledge

Of the worlds dissolves

 And the previously

Apprehended reality of

Relationships, Worlds, and its objects

Appear only like a dream.

                          Pleasures born of expectations

From person, place or things

Will definitely

Become the source of pain

Sooner or later.

Because

You are

The Being

 That you always are

 Is

The only source

Of

All pleasures.

                                          In the world,

Knowledge is light that reveals all,

 And you are

 The Self luminous light

That reveals all knowledge

-Its presence and absence.

If one realizes

What is free of the three elements

What is eternal, changeless and permanent

 By means of self realization,

 One goes beyond life and death.

Everything is Consciousness.

 Nothing exists

That is not the manifestation

 Of Supreme Consciousness.

Song of Enlightenment – Dr. Ajay Kotwal

I am

The supreme creator

Concealed

In my own

Creation

 I am the Revealer,

Revealed

Only after

Self Realization

 I am

The future

In the

Present

From the past

I am

The beginning

In the

Middle

And

The last.

All

The universes

Are

Images

Imagined

In my

Imagination

 I am

The Absolute Awareness

Recognized

Only after

Self-recognition

I am

The born,

Dead and Gone

This was my history

 I am

The Living

Will always

Remain

This is my Mystery

 I am

The destiny

I am

The fate,

I never come

Early

But I am never

Late

 I am

The

Beauty

Power

Success

And

Fame

Even if I

Come

I never

Remain.

 I am not

A form

Have

No name

I

Never Change,

I am

Always

The same.

I am

A form

Having a name,

Always changing,

Always the same

I am the fullness

In the void

 I am

The Eternal Existence

Spaceless and Timeless

I

Exist.

 In all the spaces

In all the times

I Exist.

At all the times

In all the spaces

I Exist.

 I am the Eternal Existence.

 I am here

I am there

I am far

I am near

I am nowhere

I am in everything

I am everywhere

I am the ocean

Of consciousness

I am the spring

And

The fountainhead

 I am the wave

I am the ripple

 I am the drizzle

And the drop

 I am the bubble

And the blob

 I am the ocean

Of consciousness

 I am the supreme creator

I am the creator

Of all

The creations

Of all

The universes

And of all

The vibrations

 I am the Everest of Spirituality

 I am the Olympus

I am the Alps

 I am the mountain

I am the peak

 I am the summit

I am the pinnacle

 I am the rock

I am the gravel

 I am the stone

I am the pebble

 I am

The eternity

In a

Grain of sand

I am the eternal

I never die.

I am the truth,

I never lie

 I am the supreme light of consciousness

I am the sun; I am the star;

I am the beamer; I am the beam;

I am the ray; I am the spark;

I am the light that sees and is seen

I am the supreme light of consciousness

 I am the Supreme Being

For I am the same stuff

Universe and galaxies are made of

For I am the same stuff

Suns and moons are made of

For I am the same stuff

Gods and goddesses are made of

For I am the same stuff

Saints and mystics are made of

For I am the same stuff

Animals and birds are made of

For I am the same stuff

Plants and seeds are made of

For I am the same stuff

Insects and worms are made of

I am the Supreme Being

 I am not a human

I am

An Immortal Spirit

Self-luminous

Cosmic -Consciousness –Bliss.

Birth and death

Appear as two bubbles in me.

Body, mind, soul,

Appear as three bubbles in me.

Desires of life:

Health, wealth, relationships, sex,

Name, fame, power and success

Appear as eight bubbles in me.

 Everything and everyone

Appear as

Mere bubbles in

The infinite Ocean of the Being

An Immortal Spirit

Self-luminous

Cosmic -Consciousness –Bliss

That I am!

 All attainments and achievements

Are inconsequential and petty.

All beliefs, ideas, thoughts,

Appear pompous and absurd.

All fantasies, visualization and imaginations

Appear trivial and futile.

 Everything and everyone

Appear as illusions

In

The Ultimate reality - The Being

An Immortal Spirit

Self-luminous

Cosmic -Consciousness –Bliss

That I am!

 

All planets, stars, galaxies,

Appear as few sparks in me.

All worlds, universes and places

Voids, times and spaces

Appear as some sparks in me.

 Everything and everyone

Appears as mere sparks

In the infinite Self-luminous,

Cosmic Flame of The Being

An Immortal Spirit, Self-luminous

Cosmic -Consciousness –Bliss

That I am!

All spiritual practices and experiences,

All meditation and healing systems

Everything and everyone

Appears as in a dream

In the infinite

Non-dual Awakened

Consciousness of the Being

An Immortal Spirit, Self-luminous

Cosmic -Consciousness –Bliss

That I am!

I am not

A human

But

The Being

-The Immortal Spirit, Self-Luminous,

Cosmic, Consciousness, Bliss-

That I always am!

I

Am

The Eternal

Absolute Awareness!

 I

Am

The Eternal

Absolute Awareness!

I

Am

The Eternal

Absolute Awareness!

Always aware!

Always aware!

Always aware!

I

Am

The Awakened One!

 I

Am

The Awakened One!

I

Am

The Awakened One!

 Always awake!

Always awake!

Always awake!

 I am

The Self-Luminous One!

 I am

The Self-Luminous One!

 I am

The Self-Luminous One!

Always Self-luminous!

Always Self -luminous!

Always Self-luminous!

 I

Am

The Blissful One!

 I

Am

The Blissful One!

I

Am

The Blissful One!

Always Blisstoxicated!

Always Blisstoxicated!

Always Blisstoxicated!

 I

Am

Always Aware

Always Awake

Always Self-luminous

Always In Bliss

I am nothing else except this!

Om Tat Sat

The Purpose of Human Life – Dr. Ajay Kotwal

Question. Sir, what is the purpose of human life?

Dr. Ajay Kotwal. The human birth if not translated into spiritual enlightenment, nirvana, moksha, mukti, kaivalyam is a wasted birth. The only purpose of human life is spiritual enlightenment - God realization. And the beginning of God realization is Self-Realization.

In reality your real self is Spirit, Infinite Consciousness, Infinite Bliss that is the very nature of your self. This is your real self. You are not a body, you are not a person, you are not a human. You are in reality, in essence, Spirit, Consciousness, Bliss in which the person, the human, the body and the world appears to disappear. This is the essential you.

The human birth is a very precious wondrous creation of the divine. The human form is a Divine form. And it is possible for every human being in a life-time to attain nirvana, moksha, mukti, spiritual enlightenment..

However most human beings have forgotten this divine purpose of the human life and not knowing this purpose they have been misled into believing that the purpose of human life is to become materially rich, to fulfill worldly desires, to have relationships, to accumulate wealth, to travel to different places. So not knowing the real purpose of human life is the fundamental problem of man-kind and also thinking that the purpose of life is something else adds to this problem.

The purpose of a human-being's life is the realization of the Supreme Spirit within themselves. It is a miraculous body. The human body is a miraculous form because in thisf everything is available. Within this form you can awaken your spiritual form. The human body is the outer covering , which has within itself subtle bodies, subtle worlds, causal bodies. It has in itself the Spirit Divine.

Unfortunately, not knowing this reality about the self, people identify their self with the functional personality and are convinced that they are a person with a name, and a position. They think they are a person with some nationality, some religion, some profession, ec and so some say he is the richest man, some say he is a Hindu, Muslim. Thus people not knowing that in reality they are Spirit, Consciousness, Infinite Bliss (the essential nature of the Self), not knowing this they are wrongly convinced that they are a person with a name, form, and either they are rich, or I am rich or I am poor, I am sick or I am happy. They assume these identities and actually take them to be their self.

The reality of your self and all the creation, essentially, is spirit - infinite, consciousness, bliss that is the essential nature of the Self. All the creation appears, stays and disappears in this. YOU, as the Supreme Spirit Consciousness neither appears nor stays nor disappears. Contemplate on this. This is the purpose of human life, to realize your real self, the essential self in which all the creation is taking place. You are the Spirit, Consciousness, Bliss and only Bliss, only Bliss, only Bliss.

The purpose of human life is not to seek happiness or joy or fulfill the desires in the sensory world. The sensory world is a trap. The real purpose is to recognize the Divinity that permeates and pervades the physical, subtle and causal bodies, as the self. In the process you may discover your subtle bodies, awaken, your spiritual powers, travel the astral worlds. First know the self as the Divine Spirit within and then through that spirit realize the God, Infinite, Consciousness, Spirit That You Are. This is the basic purpose of human life. Nirvana, moksha, mukti, kaivalya, God-realization. This is only purpose of human life and there is no other purpose of human life.

Om Tat Sat OM

Meditation Series (1976) of Pujya Swami Dayananda – 1 to 8

This is a series of meditations done in 1976 by Pujya Swami Dayanandaji. Swamiji says that these meditations are meant to own up what is already known at the feet of a teacher. Therefore they are meaningful only for those persons who have studied the books of Vedanta properly, with the help of a competent teacher.

(1)

Imagine … a red hot iron ball.
It is brillaint, it is hot.
But the iron ball of itself, has no brilliance, has no heat.
Fire is present IN the iron ball.
Fire is in and through the iron ball.
…It is all over the iron ball.
Similarly ….
I think of my body.
The body, of itself, is inert, is insentient….
The body has no Awareness of its own.
It is aglow with sentiency because Consciousness is present in the body.
Consciousness is in and through the body…. It is all over the body.
See the truth of this ….
See…
All over the body, every part is conscious, sentient….
Part by part I see
… face…. face…. chest….. hands…. legs…
See every part …. it is conscious, it is sentient.
Consciousness is present in every part of the body…
It is all over the body.
It is in and thru the body,
See the truth of this ……
Om

(2)

Only when I am conscious of being conscious am I conscious.
I do not take for granted that I am this body ….
Nor do I take for granted that I am not.
I am conscious of my body….
    I am consciousness IN the body ….
The Body is in Consciousness – Consciousness is not the body…
Consciousness is distinct from the body ….
I am conscious of the space to the left of me…
that space is in my Consciousness.
I am conscious of the space to the right of me…
that space is in my Consciousness.
The space abouve my head I am conscious of …
that space is in my Consciousness.
The Consciousness is free from all shapes ….
    free from all notions.
It is Shapeless Consciousness…
Shapeless Consciousness….
Shapeless Consciousness….
Om

(3)

I am Conscious of Breathing ….
The flow of breath, in and out, is in Consciousness.
I see the breath in Consciousness….
I am Conscious of the flow of breath…
I am Consciousness free from breath.
I am Consciousness…
Consciousness…
Consciousness….
Consciousness…
Om

(4)

Itself inert being made of inert materials the physical body is sentient.
The inert physical body gains sentiency because of the presence of the subtle body in it.
The subtle body is Conscious because I am (Sakshi), the Consciousness in it reflected – all over.
Therefore I am Awareness in the physical body.
Every square inch of my body is sentient …..
Conscious to touch …. from the top of my head to the soles of my feet …
Like even every part of a red hot iron ball …. because of the presence of fire.
I am Consciousness in the body making it conscious to touch.
As even in the body …. I am in the breath.
I am Conscious of my breathing ….
I watch my breathing in Consciousness.
In Consciousness, is the flow of breath, in and out ….
IN Consciousness, is the flow of breath …. in and out.
The breath falls within the scope of my Consciousness.
I am Conscious of my breath….
    I am Consciousness free from breath.
I am Conscious of my breath …
    I am Consciousness free from breath.
I am Consciousness….
Consciousness…
Consciousness….
Consciousness….
Om

(5)

I Am …. the Awareness in the ears.
The ears hear sounds
in Awareness.
The sounds which come to the ears differ ….
    the Awareness does not.
I Am Awareness in the ears.
Without reaction…
    in Awareness, I hear the sounds.
I Am the Awareness in what is heard …. Itself free from sound.
I Am Awareness….
I Am Awareness….
Awareness….
Awareness….
Awareness….
Om

(6)

I am Conscious of my breath ….
I am Conscious of my breath …..
I am Conscious of my breath.
Deliberately I breathe in and out,

    and thus become Conscious of my breath.

Now I just watch my breath, now I am just conscious of my breath.

Breathing takes place…

    I am just Conscious of the flow of breath.

The movement of breath …. takes place in my Awareness.

In Awareness is the motion of breath.

Even as the air moves in space….

    the breath moves in Awareness.

I am the Shapeless Awareness

    in which the breath moves.

Shapeles Awareness am I……

Shapeless Awareness am I …..

I am Shapeless Awareness.

WHAT IS Shapeless Awareness?

Answer without a word….

Om

(7)

What is Shapeless Awareness?
Answer without thinking ….
    What is shapeless Awareness?
I am Shapeless Awareness….
Shapeless Awareness Am I.
Shapeless Awareness Am I.
Shapeless Awareness …. Shapeless Awareness ….
Shapeless Awareness……
Shapeless Awareness….
I am Shapeless Awareness…..
Shapeless Awareness…..
Shapeless Awareness……
Awareness…..
Awareness…..
Awareness ……
Om

(8)

Imagine ….. the space outside.
Imagine the space outside….
    The Air moves freely in space.
Wherever it moves … it is in Space.
    The Air is very much with the Space.
The space is not in a given place…..
It is All-Pervasive.
The Space is never affected by air, even though the Air is very much with the space.
Space is free from Air.
The Air in my nostrils ….
    is in my Consciousness as even the Air outside is in Space.
I am Conscious of my breath….
as Air moves in Space ….. the breath moves in my Awareness.
The breath is never away from my Awareness as even the air and space outside.
The Awareness is never affected by the movement of breath as even sapce is never affected by the movment of air.

The Space never changes …

The Awareness never changes.

The Awareness is ever the same….. as even space is.

The Awareness never changes…..

    IT JUST IS….

Ever the same…

    IT JUST IS…..

With no frontiers,

    IT JUST IS.

Awareness IS …..

Awareness is I.

'I' Is Awareness ….. I am Awareness ….

Awareness is the 'I'…..

I….. Awareness ….. Is

I…… the Awareness…..

OM

The Truth Of Ego – Pujya Swami Dayananda

DEFINITION OF EGO

Ego is that which owns up to any type of activity. For example, when I see, I say 'This is my sight.' The one who owns up to the activity of seeing, the one who is the subject behind the seeing or behind hearing, tasting, smelling, thinking, or doing anything, is what is meant by the kartaa or the ego or ahankaara.

To say that one should surrender one's ego to the Lord is a very common statement that is much too simplistic in terms of understanding what is meant by surrender. First of all, I do not know who or what the Lord is. And why should I surrender the only ego that I have to this Lord? As it is, I have only a few things and these things are owned by this ego. If I surrender it to the Lord, what will I get in return? 'Everything,' I am told.
The question that would arise would be, 'If the ego is already surrendered, who will get everything?' Once I have surrendered my ego, I become totally decimated. Then who is there to get anything out of that surrender? Nobody. Therefore, that type of surrender is useless. Also, the next question is 'Who is surrendering the ego?' Somebody has to do the surrendering. It is the ego that has to surrender itself. And that is not possible. Again, if I am wearing a coat, I can surrender the coat. I can hang it somewhere or put it on someone's shoulders. Also, when I am the owner of the coat, it is easy to surrender it. If I am not the owner of the coat, I can ask you to take it, but I cannot surrender it because it does not belong to me.
Similarly, I am told that the ahankaara, the ego, belongs to the Lord and that I must surrender it. How can I surrender what does not belong to me? I can only surrender what belongs to me. And if it belongs to the Lord, how is it that I do not know this? In fact, I think that everything belongs to me, including the Lord. Why else would I address him as 'My Lord'? To address the Lord, I must be there; because I am here, he is the Lord. If I am not here, where is the Lord? He is the Lord because I call him 'Lord'!
And if there is a Lord, and this Lord includes everything, then I have nothing to surrender. I have only to know. Furthermore, if I have to surrender to a Lord who is separate from me, then I am the ego. Who, then, is to surrender this ego? The ego alone has to surrender. How can the ego surrender? The one who surrenders is the ego. And being the one who surrenders, the ego can only surrender what it owns. The owner cannot be surrendered. If the ego has to surrender to the Lord, something else must be there to surrender it, which can only be another ego because whoever owns up to the act of surrender is the ego. The ego requires an ego which requires yet another ego! Thus, we find ourselves in infinite regression. How, then, are we going to surrender our ego to the Lord?

SURRENDER IS AN ATTITUDE

Surrender is an attitude, a mature attitude. There is no other surrender than this. Surrender as such is not possible for the ego because it cannot surrender itself. But, with an attitude of surrender, I can deflate the ego. I can appreciate that there is nothing in this creation that is authored by me, that everything is given to me, including my physical body, mind, and senses. What is given to me is not mine. When I say, 'I am just a trustee, O Lord, and you are the giver,' the ego is what tells me all this. Thus, surrender can be only in terms of attitude.
Then how does one get rid of samsaara? Only by getting rid of the ego, the karta. And, if surrender is not possible, how does one get rid of the ego? In the name of getting rid of everything else, the ego remains in one form or the other because it cannot get rid of itself. It remains to say things like, 'I am the most charitable person around.' Even a person who does not talk about his or her good actions, may think of himself or herself as a humble person and say, 'I never mention all of the charities I have done. I don't boast about them. Ask anyone and they will tell you that this is so.' The ego knows very well how to sustain and perpetuate itself in so many ways.
Because the ego, the karta, is always there in one form or the other, it cannot be defeated — except by the one who undertakes an inquiry into 'Who am I.' A person can study every philosophy there is and the ego will remain, saying, 'I am a philosopher.' Only when the question, 'Who am I,' is asked, is the ego in trouble. Why? Because the ego, the kartaa, is really an impostor, a superimposition. There is no kartrtva, no doership, in fact, because it is mithyaa, dependent on aatmaa.

NEGATION BY KNOWLEDGE

When the truth of oneself is recognised, the ego does not go, strictly speaking. Rather, this recognition is what makes one see the ego as mithyaa (that which has no independent reality of its own). The 'going' of the ego, then, is purely in terms of negation, baadhaa, or destruction, naasha, by knowledge. The word 'destruction' is generally used in a physical sense, such as destroying an object so that it no longer exists in that form. Here, destruction of the ego is purely in terms of negation, baadhaa.
Negation by knowledge occurs when an object is there, but its reality is taken away. For example, you can enjoy the blue sky and, at the same time, knowing that the sky is not really blue, dismiss its blueness. Or, enjoying a movie, you can dismiss its reality. A child, on the other hand, cannot dismiss the movie as unreal because, for the child, the elephants, tigers, and everything in the movie are real. The child may even cry, not knowing that the objects and situations in the movie are only appearances and therefore, mithyaa. Until the child knows the movie is mithyaa, the movie will remain real. This knowing comes by negation, baadhaa, understanding an object or situation and removing the reality of it.
Similarly, the ego is not removed, but the fact that it has no independent existence is understood. And what does the ego that everyone has, depend upon? What is it that exists independently without depending on the ego upon which everything else depends? The ego depends for its existence on the self, which is not the ego. Therefore, the self is the truth of every ego.
There is one truth for every ego and everything that is done by the ego, and that truth, satya, is called aatm¡aa or the self. The self is the very content of the ego, without which there is no ego. This one satya, aatmaa, is not the ego and is akartaa. Then who is the kartaa? The ego alone is the kartaa.
To be a kartaa, you must have thought and this thought has its being in 'I,' consciousness. Therefore, you say, 'I am the doer.' Doership itself is a thought centred on 'I.' What is to be understood here is that while thought is centred on 'I,' 'I' itself is not centred on thought. Recognition of this fact is not the elimination or removal of thought. It is understanding — understanding the truth of 'I.'
Om Tat Sat

The Ever-Present Changless Truth About Oneself

What we imagine is our self is what we objectify, or can objectify through the means of knowledge at our disposal such as perception, inference etc– for example, the body and it's attributes, the physiological functions, the mind and its patterns of thinking, feeling, reacting and responding, memories, knowledge of different things, ignorance, the multifarious roles played etc. Based on all of these one says "I am tall/fair/short/dark", "I am hungry/thirsty", "I am angry/sad/fearful/guilty/selfish,loving,kind ", "I am smart/dull/bright/foolish", "I am timid/ shy/ aggressive/ assertive", 'I am father/ mother/ daughter / son" and so on and so forth. Each of us has our own history and we equate ourself to different aspects our history and thus have a self-identity based on a phychological history with all of its variable and varying factors.

We fail to take into account the presence of the one changless illumining, enlivening principle without which it would be impossible to know all the changing, varying experiences that consitute our history, or the history of this universe. Life is dynamic. Everything is in dynamic motion. Changes are taking place in all that is objectifiable in every micro second. And for any observation of change to take place, there has to be a changless, motionless, still, illumining principle in whose presence the change is observed. For the sake of understanding, imagine that there is a windowless room lighted by a single bulb, full of many items of furniture. These items of furniture are seen because of the presence of the lighted bulb. Now make a change. Remove all the items of furniture. The light reveals the absence of all items of furniture – an empty room. It is in the presence of the changless light, that these changes were illumined.

So too there has to be a changeless, motionless, illumining conscious principle in whose presence the changes in the body-mind-sense complex and the world around are illumined and observed. In the absence of this principle, it would be impossible to know anything whatsoever.

This changless, motionless, illumining principle is the truth about us that is ever-present and indestructible. 'Ever-present' should be understood well. It means it is always present. It is present when thoughts, observations, feelings, sensations, activities, memories, ignorance, ego etc. that constitute the psychological self is present. It is also present in the absence of all of these, or any of them (as in deep-sleep). It is not simply the stillness of a mind emptied of thought. Rather, it is the still illumining principle that lights up and reveals the stillness of an empty mind, or an agitated, restless mind.

It is this absolutely still, illumining conscious principle, one-without-a-second, of the very nature of wholeness, that is the very womb of all experience, of all motion, of all change. It is the one whole intelligence that is reflected as the consciousness in the mind and which in the process of experiencing appears to trifurcate in the 'I'-thought, the this-object-thought, as well as the various objects of the external waking world.

Being always present and being the very basis of every experience, it is always available in every expereince, in every factor of any experience. However what happens is that we do not know about it. Or even if we know about it, we are so occupied with the names and forms of the experience that we take the content, or essence for granted and do not take it into account. Imagine if in all the ornaments of gold, we failed to take into account the truth of the ornaments, namely gold!!! The gold prices would plummet! So too, we miss the most obvious – our whole self–we fail to count the truth of ourself and then go running after this and that.

We miss out on the wholeness of our self in every experience even after coming to know – because of the background chatter of habitual, mechanical modes of the egoity, the habitual false I. The habitual false I is occupied with keeping its identity going by being occupied with either the past, the future, or the seeming ills or fascinations of an objectifiable world of objects and ideas. And so it simply misses out on the fullness of 'I' – a fullness that brooks no division in reality of subject and object.

Being alive to the truth of oneself in and through every experience, profound or mundane is living. And to be alive in this way means to be free of resistance to what is, which is a topic by itself.

Om Tat Sat